Urkom family went to Tim Neville again • Mama does what is right even she doesn't feel right

Feeding ducks. Enjoying nature. Just breaking free. 

The family arrived at Tim Neville park searching for parking. Luckily, the police car drove out, so dad parked in front of the memorial after he dropped us at the entrance. 

He took out the baby from the back seat as he looked and searched for us. Finally, he found us on the green grass under the shady tree.

My mind wandered on how I could manage my time to write. And how I could I do my writing assignment without making them feel that working was special as them.

Hay! Just a big sigh and a heavy heart. But I  was trying to feel at ease. Maybe it must be the weather or my monthly period adding to this heavy feeling inside that kept me hard to breathe with the mask on.

He placed the sleeping baby at the big tree next to the pram while he invited Orci and Hannah to feed the ducks. 

He tried to communicate with me, but here I was silently resting comfortably my head on this purple bean bag.

 While scribbling on my notebook, Sarah started to cry asking me to take her out the carrier. I tried to feed her but she just ate a little. She couldn't wait to crawl and explore nature. So, I just let her out and watched that she wouldn't swallow any dirt, but she still did. 

When dad, Hannah and Ocsi came back from the pond, I accompanied them to the play area. We took a few photos and videos for memory sake. It was really cute to see these kids very cooperative with their pose. 

And again, these kids couldn't stay much longer in one place and decided to leave. We took the pram and had a walk around the area, taking pictures of the beautiful flowers especially the roses. It reminds me of the beautiful beginnings. 

" Please God help me to push past from this odd feeling. I am sorry Lord if I sinned against you that result to this heavy heart."

My mind wandered with all the prayers I could say while taking more pictures of them feeding the ducks and a lot of explaining on how things being done and what signs meant. 

When cold started to blow on our face, we left the place and packed up our staff to bring them back to the car. And I took the keys from Him, so I drove the family back home. Reversing the car was a bad maneuver, I didn't have enough space to fully turn on my right and had to reverse twice. But, in the end, I pushed the accelerator and sped up to cross to the other side of the road. Very lucky, it was quiet and no traffic. 

So far, I felt a lot better when we arrived at the house and pulled the hand break because we were all excited to eat ice cream. After the ice cream, we finished it with the chocolate cupcake I baked. 

If there is a lesson I learn today, don't allow your feelings to ruin your day. Normally, we feel not good, we don't feel like going out and feel like just we want to believe in how we feel. 

But feelings won't last and they shouldn't dictate us on how we live our life. Just push past beyond your feelings- go out with your family even you don't feel like it. Kids will remember your presence and not how you feel at that moment.